So what the hell is my problem? Well I have at least 5 actually...
You cannot take it back and your feelings, all of them - the joy, the grief, the pain, the regret and shame - they are all valid. You need to feel them to change and to do better. Because as parents we are always trying to do better even if in any given moment we do not succeed. So what comfort can I give, if it is not to tell you not to worry? Listen up...