I stayed quiet last week whilst the smacking debate was raging through social media.
Fundamentally I agree with Scotland's decision to make smacking illegal. I don't think it is ever the right choice for discipline. I don't think it is a good parenting tool.
I agree with all the arguments that hitting adults is classed as assault and abuse, and so should hitting children.
I agree that there are a million other things we can do instead of using violence towards our children.
This one, particularly in her toddler years took me to the edge many a time. She pushed me more than I ever knew I could be pushed.
I will hold my hands up. I have smacked. It has never been a rational, conscious choice. It's never been a premeditated parenting tool. It has been during moments when I've reached the end of my tether, I've been tired, emotional, unhappy. Does that make it justifiable? Fuck no. Does it make me human? I guess.
I bang on about being selfish and putting self care first. Because I KNOW I am a great mum. But I know I can be infinitely better when I'm well rested, happy, fulfilled and looked after.
Smacking is not something I ever wanted to do. It's not something I ever want to do again. But I've done it, as I'm sure many many others have done too. Let's be kind to ourselves and try harder to look after our own wellbeing so this next generation know loving cuddles not stinging thighs. Our kids deserve better.
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